so here we are already at chanukah it seems like the year just started and its already almost half over. My friend David called me today from Israel it was really really good to hear from him i hadn't spoken to him in a couple months. we shmoozed a while and we are both doing well b"h and he asked me when i was coming back to Israel he said he misses me and he thinks i should come to his yeshiva and that i would do realy well there. I have to say that for the first time ever i didn't know what to answer to the question i mean my eventual plan is to end up there but i have no idea when this plan is going into effect. I finally came up with the answer as soon as i can but is that really true i mean technically i could drop everything and go right now i mean i have a bit of money saved up at least enough to buy a one way ticket to Israel and then i could join the army for a year and just get it over with. and then i would officially live in Israel. and it got me thinking when will i get to see my home again? when will i get to give my mom a hug again? when will i be able to Daven at the kotel again? see my rabbeim? see my friends? see another Mediterranean sunset? the only answer i can come up with is i don't know it makes me sad. what if i turn into one of those people that always says he will move there but never actually ends up doing so? i miss my home i miss the people and the place i miss shabbot really feeling like shabbot i want to go home. anyway sry for that rant i just need to get that all out in the open if i depressed anyone i ask them forgiveness anyway this was supposed to be about chanakah but that didn't really work out so well maybe i will try again on Wednesday night. layla tov everyone chag samayach
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