leaving bmore

so I'm sitting in my brothers house in Baltimore using the comp and I'm sad that I'm leaving back to Florida i didn't realize how many people really cared about me until i came back. its such a blessing to know that i have people that care about me b/c i know some people don't even have that. I'm not looking forward to the hard work i have waiting for me in Florida but i am looking forward to getting it over with which i guess in the big picture is kind of the same thing. while i was back i ran into many of my class mates and Friends a lot of whom are either married or engaged. this got me thinking that if i want that for my self then i really have to buckle down and work hard so i can get to the point in my life were I'm ready for that. its not going to be an easy thing to do but I'm very motivated...

crying shoulder

we all need a shoulder to cry on sometimes the question is what do you do when your crying shoulder lives in a different country do you say screw it and spend money that you don't really have to go there. Or do you try to suck it up and just move on without the shoulder. this is what i will be contemplating over shabbot. insights are welcome.

RAINCLOUDS OF TOMORROW

so ya last night I couldn't sleep and I decided to take a crack at this whole song writing thing and hey it didn't come out so bad if I do say so my self I mean it is my first try. true its a bit on the depressing side but I channel some of my best stuff out of that emotion so I hope you will leave me some feed back thank you

RAINCLOUDS OF TOMORROW
I'm so tired yet tonight the sleep wont come
emotions mix together and make me feel so numb
you made me feel complete you made me feel whole
you gave me what i needed to up lift my soul
you showed me how to smile to make the raindrops go away
but now that tears drop from my eyes were are you to say...

"smile child laugh away your sorrows
close your eyes child and dream of better tomorrows
rainclouds don't stop coming yes my dear its true
but if you put your trust in god then the sun shines through"

I remember sitting in the park talking on into the night
I remember how you felt when i hugged you tight
I remember every hey, hello and goodbye
I remember every smile, laugh and sigh
I remember meeting you and the thoughts inside my head
I remember needing you and this is what you said...

"smile child laugh away your sorrows
close your eyes child and dream of better tomorrows
rainclouds don't stop coming yes my dear its true
but if you put your trust in god then the sun shines through"

I try so hard to forget and I try so hard to ignore
but its been a few lonely days and I only miss you more
all these memories swim around inside my head
your face haunts my dreams as I lie here in my bed
I wish I could go back to how it was the old way
one more time I just wish that I could hear you say...

"smile child laugh away your sorrows
close your eyes child and dream of better tomorrows
rainclouds don't stop coming yes my dear its true
but if you put your trust in god then the sun shines through"

I wonder if you dream of me in an agitated sleep
I wonder in your dreams of me if you ever weep
I wonder what the sun does behind clouds so dark and grey
and I wonder if you ever wish to hear me say...

"smile child laugh away your sorrows
close your eyes child and dream of better tomorrows
even if your fear has grown because your love is gone
you must be strong child because this life goes on"